I FELT LIKE I WAS RUSHING TO THE EDGE OF A ROOF TO THROW MYSELF INTO THE VOID. EACH TIME I STOPPED JUST BEFORE JUMPING, TURNED TO HIM, BEGGED HIM TO HOLD ME BACK. IT’S TERRIBLY HARD TO MAKE A DECISION THAT TEARS YOUR HEART OUT, ESPECIALLY IF IT’S A NEW HEART THAT WON’T SURVIVE, IT’S THOUGHT, THE FIRST INJURY.