MY MOTHER’S DEATH THIS PAST YEAR WAS THE GREATEST OF ALL MY DESPAIR. I IDOLIZED HIM. HIS IMAGE WAS UNIQUE TO ME. I KNEW THE MORAL VALUES OF HIS HOLY SOUL SO ABOVE ALL THAT THERE IS HUMAN THAT I COULD NOT RESIGN MYSELF TO THE LOSS OF A BEING ON WHOM I WAS RELYING TO MAKE INVISIBLE THE HIDDEN DEFECTS OF MY SOUL.